A chance combination two Facebook posts and a late night email:
Scott McLendon commented on Cindy Sheehan’s status:
“”What is to give light must endure burning.”
“The experiences of camp life show that a man does have a choice of action. There were enough examples, often of a heroic nature, which proved that apathy could be overcome, irritability suppressed. Man can preserve a vestige of spiritual freedom, of independence of mind, even in such terrible conditions of psychic and physical stress. We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken away from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s way. The way in which a man accepts his fate and all the suffering it entails, the way in which he takes up his cross, gives him ample opportunity—even in the most difficult circumstances—to add a deeper meaning to life.”
“Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather must recognize that it is he who is asked. In a word, each man is questioned by life; and he can only answer to life by answering for his own life; to life he can only respond by being responsible.”
“Just as a small fire is extinguished by the storm whereas a large fire is enhanced by it-likewise a weak faith is weakened by predicament and catastrophes whereas a strong faith is strengthened by them. ”
“For the meaning of life differs from man to man, from day to day and from hour to hour. What matters, therefore, is not the meaning of life in general but rather the specific meaning of a person’s life at a given moment. ”
“Our generation is realistic for we have come to know man as he really is.
“After all, man is that being who has invented the gas chambers of Auschwitz; however, he is also that being who has entered those gas chambers upright, with the Lord’s Prayer or Shema Yisrael on his lips. ”
“Only to the extent that someone is living out this self transcendence of human existence, is he truly human or does he become his true self. He becomes so, not by concerning himself with his self’s actualization, but by forgetting himself and giving himself, overlooking himself and focusing outward.”
” “So, let us be alert-alert in a twofold sense:
Since Auschwitz we know what man is capable of.
And since Hiroshima we know what is at stake.”
–Viktor Frankl
——————–Freedom for what ?
Bodhi Sarango sent a message to the members of Celebrating The New Man – Zorba the Buddha.
- OSHO, BEING YOUR SANNYASIN HAS GIVEN ME THE SENSE OF FREEDOM OF NOT BELONGING TO ANY PARTICULAR PLACE, COUNTRY OR EVEN NATIONALITY. IT’S REALLY GREAT. I’VE FELT ABLE TO MOVE ABOUT WITHOUT MUCH FEAR AND TO BE COMMITTED WITHOUT FEELING IMPRISONED. WHY THEN, AFTER NINE YEARS, DO I FEEL A BITTER SADNESS MIXED WITH THIS SENSE OF FREEDOM?
- Freedom has two sides and if you have only one side of it, a single side, you will feel freedom mixed with sadness. So you have to understand the whole psychology of freedom.
The first side is freedom from: from nationality, from a certain church, from a certain race, from a certain political ideology. This is the first part of freedom, the foundation of freedom. It is always from something. Once you have attained this freedom, you will feel very light and very good and very happy. And for the first time you will start rejoicing in your own individuality, because your individuality was covered with all those things that you have become free of.
But this is only one half and then there will come sadness, because the other half is missing. Freedom from is fulfilled, but freedom for what? Freedom in itself has no meaning, unless it is freedom for something, something creative — freedom to sculpt, freedom to dance, freedom to create music, poetry, painting. Unless your freedom turns into a creative realization, you will feel sad. Because you will see that you are free: your chains are broken, you no longer have any handcuffs, you no longer have any chains, you don’t have any prison, you are standing under the starry night, completely free, but where to go?
Then comes a sudden sadness. What path to choose? Up to now there was no question of going anywhere — you were imprisoned. Your whole consciousness was concentrated on how to get free, your only anxiety was how to get free. Now that you are free, a new kind of problem has to be encountered. What to do now that you are free?
Just freedom in itself does not mean anything, unless you choose a creative path. Either you go deeper into meditation for self-realization — that’s what I was talking about: unless you become like Premda, pregnant — or if you have a certain kind of talent that has not been allowed to develop because of your fetters — you could not compose music because your hands were in chains, you could not dance because your feet were in chains … If you have a talent to be a dancer, then be a dancer. Then your freedom is complete, then the circle is complete.
Freedom from and freedom for — this is not something new that you are facing. It is being faced by every person who struggles first for freedom and then suddenly finds, “Now that I am free, what am I going to do?” Up to now, he was so occupied, so engaged, so very busy. Even in his dreams he was thinking only of freedom. And he has never thought about what he is going to do when he will get freedom.
Prem Islamo, what has happened is beautiful. But something more is needed. You have to become a creator. You have to find some creativity that fulfills your freedom, otherwise the freedom is empty. You need either to create something or to discover something. Either bring your potential to actuality or go inwards to find yourself, but do something with your freedom.
Freedom is only an opportunity for you. It is not in itself the goal. It simply gives you the whole opportunity to do whatever you want to do. Now you are free and you are feeling sad, because you have not used this opportunity yet. Meditation will do, music will do, sculpture will do, dancing will do, love will do. But do something with your freedom. Just don’t sit with your freedom, otherwise you will become sad.
Freedom has to be a creative force in your life, not just a negative kind of freedom. The first part is negative: it is simply getting rid of the prison, it is getting rid of the chains. That you have done: now you are standing underneath the sky, completely lost.
Perhaps you have never realized that the imprisoned person has a certain reason for remaining imprisoned. That’s why millions of people in the world remain prisoners of religion, of caste, creed, nation, color. All kinds of prisons they go on tolerating — not without reason. Their reason is that when they are imprisoned they don’t have any responsibility, they don’t have to be creators, they don’t have to find some positivity in their freedom. It is enough for them to remain imprisoned, because then others will go on taking care.
Why are people Christians, why are people Hindus, why are people Mohammedans? Because Jesus will take care. You need not be worried. All that you have to be is just a slave of the Christian church. And the Christian church will take care of all your sins and of all that is needed. One feels absolutely unburdened with responsibility — no responsibility.
But remember one thing, fundamental to the whole question of freedom: responsibility and freedom are together. If you don’t want to have responsibility, you can’t have freedom either. They both come together or they both go together. If you leave responsibility, you have to accept slavery in some way or other.
Two versions of the responsibility for freedom, how green…
Hi, Monte,
Thought you might appreciate this. I’ve had this reference in my library for years, I was going to send this text and reference to you last summer, but, time and tides wait for no spam.
–charles
From:
Sutra Spoken By The Sixth Patriarch On The High Seat Of The Treasure Of The Law
(Aka: The Platform Sutra)
———————
…
Thus, to the knowledge of no one, the dharma was transmitted to me at midnight, and consequently I became the inheritor of the teaching of the Sudden school as well as of the robe and the begging bowl.
“You are now the sixth patriarch,” said he «Hung-jen, the fifth patriarch –c.o.», “Take good care of yourself, and deliver as many sentient beings as possible. Spread and preserve the teaching, and don’t let it come to an end. Take note of my stanza:
Sentient beings who sow seeds of enlightenment
In the field of causation will reap the fruit of buddhahood.
Inanimate objects void of buddha-nature
Sow not and reap not.
He further said, “When the patriarch Bodhidharma first came to China, most Chinese had no confidence in him, and so this robe was handed down as a testimony from one patriarch to another. As to the dharma, this is transmitted from heart to heart, and the recipient must realize it by his own efforts. From time immemorial it has been the practice for one buddha to pass to his successor the quintessence of the dharma, and for one patriarch to transmit to another the esoteric teaching from heart to heart. As the robe may give cause for dispute, you are the last one to inherit it. Should you hand it down to your successor, your life would be in imminent danger. Now leave this place as quickly as you can, lest some one should do you harm.”
…
After saying good-bye, I left him and walked toward the south. In about two months’ time, I reached Ta-Yü Mountain. There I noticed that several hundred men were in pursuit of me with the intention of robbing me of my robe and begging bowl.
Among them there was a monk named Hui-ming, whose lay surname was Ch’en. He was a general of the fourth-rank in lay life. His manner was rough and his temper hot. Of all the pursuers, he was the most vigilant in search of me. When he was about to overtake me, I threw the robe and the begging bowl on a rock, saying, “This robe is nothing but a symbol. What is the use of taking it away by force?” [I then hid myself.]
When he got to the rock, he tried to pick them up, but found he could not. Then he shouted out, “Lay brother, lay brother [for the patriarch had not yet formally joined the Order], I come for the dharma, not for the robe.”
Whereupon I came out from my hiding place and squatted on the rock. He made obeisance and said, “Lay brother, preach to me please.”
“Since the object of your coming is the dharma,” said I, “refrain from thinking of anything and keep your mind blank. I will then teach you.” When he had done this for a considerable time. I said, “When you are thinking of neither good nor evil, what is at that particular moment, venerable sir, your real nature [literally, original face]?”
As soon as he heard this he at once became enlightened. But he further asked, “Apart from those esoteric sayings and esoteric ideas handed down by the patriarchs from generation to generation, are there any other esoteric sayings?”
“What I can tell you is not esoteric,” I replied. “If you turn your light inwardly, you will find what is esoteric within you.”
“In spite of my staying in Huang-mei,” said he, “I did not realize my self-nature. Now thanks to your guidance, I know it as a water drinker knows how hot or cold the water is. Lay brother, you are now my teacher.”
I replied ” if that is so, then you and I are fellow disciples of the fifth patriarch. Take good care of yourself.”
…
pp73-76,
From: _The Diamond Sutra & The Sutra Of Hui-Neng_, tr. A. F. Price & Wong Mou-lam, 1990, Shambhala Press. Excerpt from The Platform Sutra of Hui-Neng.
i hear the 7th Master had known for some time that the uninspiring acolyte coveted his robebut thought he was concealing it
Out of the desperation born of lack of talent the acolyte began to plot,
One night he made up his mind
On the way, in the rain, knowing they are alone they meet
Looking in the eye he disrobes dropping the robe in the puddle, he walks away
The 8th kneels and weeps, the office is passed
I may have the enumeration wrong, these things all run together in my mind…
want to know why i like the one hand clapping koan?
Human Responsibility, Zen, mental liberty, you, myself, Allness Is Being, Life, death
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it was asked again, which seems so seldom, and apparently there was a new concise version to be revealed, yet another onion layer,
“By the way, what is this “Allness” stuff? Another flaky new-age feel good cultist wanna-be group or religion? Well, if it is a religion, I guess it is no worse than the others.
Rick Wilhelm
To utter Allnessness, level 5, universal wonderment!”
monte letourneau to RICK
yea, my cult! only one sheep allowed per shepherd, oneself.
so it’s kinda about one’s personal relation to the All, and the greatness
of the collective being grace within one. the one within one, as it were.
kind of gnostic, i respect the words of Lao Tzu above any others, and
feel the greatest historical sympathy with our native consensus based
spirits.
i really don’t think i’ve been revealed the words to explain it well to you.
the core concepts of my spiritual path are particle physics and cosmology.
those with a spiritual questing who follow well the logic of these sciences
often follow well my spiritual philos, which can sometimes also make sense to
those who are students of philosophy, especially if well versed in the
fundamental sciences, and open to a variety religious concepts.
it is almost by definition not a religion,
it is my own path to words i am comfortable using.
a cult of one.
the main rites are things like looking up at a full moon and loving
it’s beauty while returning my fluids to the earth, Loving my lover,
making the most of food i’ve helped grow, and in general artfully,
fully, passionately, living each moment gracefully, fully in the cycle
carnate (no soul, reincarnation, or after death).
hard core materialist science proves well the miracle of existing,
that Allness’s Grace and Love is.
i am a hard core materialist, i desire to deny the splitting of
material and spirit.
as well, i believe the brain evolved to choose good,
and that the most apt word for the concept of evil is stupid.
given the possibilities of the infinte in time and space,
it is not that far fetched to imbue All with the ability to evolve a
completely transcendant being, independant of localization in time or
space.
wither she be yet or not, then she will always have been here now
and you are an inextricable part of It’s evolution.
that which we are allowed to know her most intimately, at this time,
in, is Earth.
you might say that Gea is a minor goddess, or an archangel to me, or,
I am a Gaen, but it only approximates the truth – as does all i have
written here.
.
which seems much in the spirit, now that i review the letter, of your
“universal wonderment”, a stage beyond which it is not yet mine see.
“the Jewish religion forbids the Jewish people from having a state, the Jewish people are exiled”
“it’s against the Jewish beliefs, and all the actions that emanate from Zionism,
the oppression of a people, the stealing the land, and even the oppression of the orthodox people …
that’s all against God, against the Torah, and they, they do this all in the name of the Torah and the name of Judaism.
So we want the world to know”
ideally we would hope that the United States government stop supporting Isreal,
they think they’re doing them a favor,
but basically zionism is the main cause of antisemetism in the world”
Anti-Zionist Jewish Protestors 3:22
“athieistic, nationalistic, movement; extremely opposed to the basic faith of Judaism”
an eloquent defense by a Zionist, “you morons, you deserve to die, and your children should piss on your bones”
Zionism versus Judaism Part 1 of 6 9:57
Zionism is not a religion. Zionism is secular nationalism for reformed jews. Zionism versus Judaism Part 2 9:59
the covenant: to be holy people, emulate Allness, or be rejected by the land Zionism versus Judaism Part 3 9:59
the oath “you shall not rebel against any nations, you shall not go back in mass to israel, you shall not try to end the exile” Zionism versus Judaism Part 4 9:59
Zionists prevented the buying of hungarian jewish lives from hitler (whoa!). Zionism versus Judaism Part 5 9:59
“Zionists terrorized the Jews.” “We are forbidden by God to have a state, we are forbidden to oppress a people.” Zionism versus Judaism Part 6 9:59
“it is a problem with a movement that has nothing to do with God.” “we must pray to God
for the speedy and peaceful dismantling of this illegal state”…
“God is the one who accomplishes; the USSR also disappeared overnight”
I thought i had some pretty good pics this evening.
but those damn greens are an active lot, they keep moving.
Sometimes it was me:outside smoking, hard to get a shot from this far.
Most times it was everyone else.
too late, bad photographer; left to right now:
George Martin, with Peace Action, and our great and benevolent old guard apparatchik, is already going.
Winston Sephus Jr, is a good state Treasurer candidate, (like the rest he’s aware movement doesn’t photo well).
Bob Levis, working to replace Sensenbrenner, all the way off stage already.
Leon Todd, for Lt Governor, face ablur.
Rae Vogler, doing quite well against Kohl, but you can hardly tell from this pic.
Claude VanderVeen, running for the 7th State Senate seat, looks like he’s thinking, but he always does.
Ruthie, invaluable Co-Chair of… too many committees, is definately gonna be in motion.
Before i can snap another even Liz (yet another one of our army of overpaid professional cadre), will also be to moving too fast for my cheap camera to capture.
Thought i had some good ones of Rae, but this is the best result here, you can almost see the charm, charisma, and command of the issues that make her such a good candidate, but that stuff doesn’t even photo well even when she’s not all blurry.
ditto ..3, other side of mike stand, between them these two shots have a neat symetricality…
Aaahh, i have one of both George and Rae standing still, i like to get the behind the scenes, but this one says nothing.
all it says is hey, look at all the cool Cuban rum Rick brought, and salmon, behind Rae! and look how high the ceiling is.
It says it clearly however.
Ahh, Winston and Bob stand still for me…
no, wait, everyone’s actually moving still.
Here we have my favorite, a large swarm consisting of much of our statewide horde of operatives, standing, listening, i think they were even trying to help me get a good shot.
but that one there just can’t stop being such an activist, you should see George dance, man!
L2R again:
Claude VanderVeen thoughtful guy for 7th dist. State Senate.
George Martin, dances for Peace Action Wisconsin, United for Peace & Justice, coalition generally, and well, Peace.
Marc Sanson, Rae’s campaign manager, pondering his candidates words.
Ruth looking thoughtful too.
Gee, i guess they do stand still sometimes.
Must think, communicate, reach consensus, then act.
but moving much of the time, activists are active!
well, at least as active as i’m gonna get.
While the main thing we could learn from this is that a good photographer doesn’t go outside for a smoke during the climatic photo op,
but there’s the other lesson too:
For more proof that greens are too active to capture, we flashback to Radfest:
Here we have two candidates and myself.
On the left is Nelson Eisman, running for Governor, with David Cobb, our last presidential candidate, in the center.
Even though the three of us are holding each other up, we still can’t stand quite still.
So it is that David, the old hand, gave out some good candidate advice,
well, for the likes of me good anyway.
He said that a candidate should always make sure to occasionally hold a pose, or more importantly, just be still, so that everyone will get a good shot of that moment.
I somewhat caught Nelson reacting too actively to the concept itself,
while Dave practises…
Our hordes of fanactic secret cadre watch studiously, calculating, absorbing like blank slate sponges.
David does it some more, but wait, everyone is being still here.
Well as our dictatorial head muck a muck, and presidential loser…
well, when he speaks the cadre must slavishly listen.
but wait, whats this??
This young man is speaking quite activly, and is currently in motion
empatically pulling the trigger on those in the crowd…
i wish i could remember the young man’s name.
He was laying down the most powerful of raps at a police brutallity rally earlier in the summer.
and here’s George quite in motion.
hmmmm have we learned something here today boys and girls?
something about the sun, even overcast and in shade, being better at capturing the activist than lifeless indoor bulbs.
We had some fun tonight, Rae was charming in her new (to me) haircut, and i learned even better how not to photograph.
Earlier Leon, Bob, Chris, Chad, and myself were at the UWM student union for a green fair.
Then later Chad signed on as primary contact with GPUWM, and Chris Doering is aboard.
Now we need two more, of the 6 of us, to sign up by mon afternoon.
We also found out GPUWM has accumulated a 318$ budget!!
now maybe we should figure out how to spend it
agenda item number 1? anyone?
i’ve combed youtube.com for info on our war on the mideast.
i thought i’d start with the one’s that brought me there.
damn! that reminds me, i just missed the daily show again again,
anyway, here are the humorous ones first to soften you up.
in the next few days i will post some very graphic war vid links,
and some very informational links on Palestine’s water and such to follow after that.
if you hate the Daily show, you may want to skip a bit.
you gotta watch a short ad first, but i think it’s worth it, press the smaller play button. huffingtonpost / stop-this-shit this is a really great folk song on the recent G8 summit
this is a list of Lebanese targets hit in the first week of
“restricted pinpoint attacks” to ‘defend’ Israel from Hezbollah
all three runways at airport,
airport fuel tanks
road to the airport,
roads,
hwy linking Beruit and Damascus,
bridges, 46
tunnels,
lighthouse,
port facilities,
electrical pylons,
power plant fuel tanks,
generators,
water mains,
pumping stations
fuel depots,
gas stations,
houses,
milk factory,
ambulances,
an ambulance caravan from Syria,
procter and gamble warehouse,
countless apartment buildings,
shops,
stalls,
way disproportionate number of cars,
empty seafront restaurant,
mobile television relay stations,
comm networks,
cellphone towers,
glass factory,
U.N. peacekeepers’ main headquarters in the south,
Christian suburb on the eastern side of Beirut,
truck-mounted water well drill,
the office of PLO foriegn minister,
barracks of Lebanese logistics unit
(some members of which had just shown Robert Fisk
what they thought was a fallen piece of wing and
burning fuel from an f-16; they are now dead),
another Lebanese barracks,
multiple army bases,
schools
Grain Silos
is thier aim amazingly bad, or thier lies?
and then there’s the blockade
Israeli Air Force General Ido Nehushtan says, “The targets chosen are connected either directly or indirectly with terrorism,”
Israeli Vice Premier Shimon Peres, “no civilian life will be hit, that no civilian infrastructure will be destroyed.” “Israel didn’t start the war. Israel didn’t attack anybody.”
“There has also been widespread destruction of public infrastructure.”
International Committee of the Red Cross
“Since the start of the month, Israeli forces have killed nearly 50 Palestinians, the majority of them being innocent civilians. In May, the killing of more than 40 Palestinians by Israeli forces was scarcely reported in the US media. The recent artillery barrage on Gaza left many children under the age of ten dead. The number of Palestinian children killed in the last three weeks by Israeli forces is equal to the number of Israeli children killed by Palestinian groups over the past two years.”
July 04, 2006, http://poeticremi.blogspot.com/
Found a pic of men in Beirut watching Hizbullah leader
Sheikh Hassan Nasrallah, while the Isrealis claim to think
the explosions behind are hitting him
(they did nab some apartments and houses though).
btw, the CIA has closed the book on Osama Bin Laudin.
h u b r i s ZIONAZIS
Israel still holds nearly 10,000 abducted Palestinians, including many members of the Palestinian government. Ali Abuminah, co-founder of ElectronicIntifada.net, Israel explicitly introduced the tactic of hostage taking for the purpose of prisoners exchangesin the early 90s. Today, Israel holds many Lebanese prisoners and occupies the Shebaa Farms. When did Israel every respect the sovereignty of any of its neighbors. Israel occupies southwest Syria. There are 30,000 Israeli settlers living in southwest Syria cultivating wine and enjoying the Golan Heights and claiming God gave it to them. Israel is establishing new settlements everyday throughout the Occupied Territories. Israel has been violating the airspace and territorial waters of Lebanon continuously and consistently ever since it was forced to withdraw its forces and its collaborator army, the South Lebanon army, in May 2000.
i wanted to recap the idylic last 2 months when i got home.
now much of that is obliterated by war.
we built a chicken coop and planted some veggies,
every morn Jackie would go out and get the eggs,
Jackie’s car crapped out, and she bought a white Toyota
watering and feeding the chickens, and watering the plants.
whenever we had to drive somewhere
(almost every day, one way or another)
it was likely to blow the whole day.
i did get to help three turtles cross the road, however.
the first one was a really large painted turtle,
maybe half my age, or more.
i heard a gurgling sound as i turned him over to see his belly,
they are so brightly painted, and i wanted to be sure that was what he was.
we all laughed as he sprayed me really well out of the same leg-hole
that was pointed towards my face as i turned him.
he missed my face, but my shirt and arm got wet.
i washed at a gas station, and Jackie had to buy me
a new t-shirt so i could enter the restaurant we were going to.
the second turtle was the only snapper i’ve ever touched
though he was hardly bigger than my hand, it was really scary
his long neck would have nabbed me if i held him much longer.
the third was a small painted, much more what i’m used to.
we also saw a homing pigeon that had been attacked by the side
of the road, and took him home.
while trying to find the right contacts online, we found out her son Rob
knew of a guy nearby, right across the road from where he was moving in,
who kept them. it was within a mile down the same road we found it along
we drove over, and, sure enough, it was his.
we also saw many deer, and took a few scenic drives.
we went to the Midwest Renewable Energy Fair and had some fun
well, that’s the short vers.,
soon i will post more info about occupation and bombing than you could want.
I CONSIDER MYSELF A CONSENSUS,
OF SEVERAL LEVELS OF EVOLUTION AND BRAIN STRUCTURE
the bi-cameral/hemispheric minds
THE EGO IS A SENSORY INTERFACE ILLUSION,
IT IS SO NOT REALLY THERE
there is never really an i,
it is always really we
we keep it in the back of our “subconscious” those things we have chosen to forget
no one is really ever alone in there, anywhere, anytime
and all states are available to the mind of that self,
that are availble to any component
occurs now to me this could be taken as little more
than an endorsement of sympathetic magic.
’tisn’t, i actually don’t trust sympathetic, as a methodology,
but it’s all we really had on neandertals, who were denser,
stronger, far more accurate throwers
well, maybe that and atalatls, for that’s the way ’tis
and maybe better voicebox, all this leads to wider synergys.
which is more like what i mean
while old ways are truely superceded, they are never superfluous.
to be whole we must create the consensus reality we want to live in
the power of dream, for example is well demonstrated as a necessity
in the historic annals of many sciences.
the structure of benzene first appeared to us as a dream, for example,
of a snake eating it’s tail, a small ourobos, spinning,
reminding of the point – the circle
i believe that our evolution, and survival, depend on finding the common ground, and a reconciliation,
of cultural norms and systems of understanding.
from prehistoric roots of language, ancient, and historic culture, and post-modern science,
must emerge a common understanding.
we are beginning to understand the brain’s complexity, how mind emerges from that, our history,
our evolution, and our universe on many new levels.
this century will bring ways to sift and winnow our understandings beyond current imagination
and ecological problems, created by social problems beyond our understanding.
We have the information to solve our problems, and the imagination to enact solutions,
but we lack an agreement on what the problems are, and what solutions are desirable.
we must forge a consensus on the meaning of life, as quickly as we learn the details of life.
we have the tools to understand things that have escaped us due to their complexity,
things like our minds, and the chemistry of collected living bodies.
i expect us to find wisdom in old ways that have been seeming lost,
and knowledge of what it is to be human, and how.
this must crystallize into a more rapidly evolving, more effective, more widely shared
consensus on how to be human, and how to be earthlings.
a more universal, more adaptable, system for encoding our information into understanding, and actions
will grow alongside the technologies that will provide a much more complete encoding of our world
into information.
to get on down our path, we must know, and be, more godly, more human, and more earthly.
more deeply material, less shallowly materialistic
science, religion, and magic will each find the value of the other
they will be reconciled, indeed, we must become more human, we must know ourselves and our past;
we must return to the root, to bring water and nutrient to the branches
we will then each be our own branch of learning, creating the understanding to foster the growth of all.
my evolving spirit-view’s basis is Love,
understanding, propagating, expanding, explaining, Love.
it is the greatest mystery,
understanding of which brings greatest Being,
and makes the greatest beings
(i used to think it was Truth, when i was younger and dumber)
we have studied hate far past it’s usefulness, surely we can agree on that?
in sooth i revere, above all else, Earth, and Love.
Gravity is the Allness’s Love.
Earth is our place to beautify the Allness,
for us all to co-evolve allness in.
Truth and Grace define Beauty.
Beauty, Love, Truth, Earth and the Allness, are plenty of Reason for every being Being
We all share one soul, it is why we are here,
to be here
to being the All into being, to create, expand, evolve Her
soul, psychic energy, magical power, inspiration, meaning, is somehow conserved
as is mass and energy, to which conservation this is somehow enjoined
if only by our lack of knowing why.
the best theoretical physicists now speak of conservation of information,
an emergent property of data, which itself is a property emerging from positions of mass/energy,
as it emerges from spacetime.
all properties of existance seem to arise as an emergent property of spacetime’s very existing.
each new level of complexity emerging into ever more levels of complexity
are meaning, thinking, and Soul that much different?
i believe all past lives are part of all present ones.
thought, divination, and meaning itself are some of the many manifestations of this conservation
and these two are intimately linked, by the flowing of their parts between them,
the melding of one into the other.
it is not the dominance of one part or another,
but the dance of moving energies or vibrations back and forth between the parts,
that make for the purpose, the pleasure, the very existence, of individuals, and of the whole.
This is the spiritual reason why sexual union is, to me, one of the most magical of acts,
universally, and, in particular, to me.
our different understandings of the universe somehow work upon similar principles,
conserving truth and meaning, whether encoded in the stars, or our DNA,
to be read from the molecular structures, or from the cast of die,
if any one, or some, can just divine the form, the code, the key to meaning
and these concepts are some of the traditional basis of magic, and some of science
both of which can be religions, personal paths of spirit,
or illusions whisked away in the winds of time.
Some aspects of reason are provable, some unproven, some stubbornly unprovable; forever?
why we are here?
to be here
?
why do we love?
to love
?
why not?
these two are most intimately related
as the sun, the fire, the food, the luck in the hunt, the thought, the progeny, the word,
the power, lovers entwined, and lines of descent entangled.
science can only prove so much, the spiritual proof is that which is not to be replicated,
but can only be experienced by one; leading not to theories, but to beliefs.
since i always look for outside confirmation, deeply influenced by my first religion, science,
lovemaking becomes where i am most likely to find what appears to be a confirmation of
another’s reality and understanding, and my emergent ‘beliefs’.
two meaning systems, two views, two minds
in contrast, conflict, and in concert,
exchanging energies, loves, and world views, on the most intimate of levels.
We can never really know the mind, or the reality, of any other.
but when you are feeling you feel what another feels
you short circuit the mental systems that deny certainty.
we all feel the same feelings in very much the same way;
all humans use the same chemistry, and similar structures, to experience feelings.
indeed, we share much of this experience and equipment with all mammals,
and much of that is shared with reptiles, less fish, even less other animals.
still, hunger, smell, sex, decision making, all animals share these modes of being,
and experience them through very similar mechanisms.
One may surmise that the experiencing itself must also be very similar.
when one looks in a dog’s eye, one feels that the dog has feelings,
yet one never really absolutely knows the mind of their own twin
opening one’s mind to experiencing the magical flow of energy embodied in lovemaking
brings one as close to certitude as possible in the belief that one shares thoughts with another.
properly matched and understood, lovers may also experience the flow of energies
between entities, the dance of being at the elemental level.
however they conceive to understand this, there is to be found a proof of the underlying reality.
we are all connected, we are all one, we are bound to life, and empowered therein,
by Love, Meaning, Truth, Grace, and understandings
the smallest consensus is two, the most basic of consensus realities.
besides sheer coincidence itself (which is all magic, science, soul, or spirit really are),
as i touch it, in gaming, with dice (my first big hint), and synergy of meaning,
the other places i find meaning, like using the I-Ching, and sexual love,
are intimately entwined with my mind and my perception, indistinguishable from faith and illusion.
but some larger patterns, like astrology (for me), show the connectedness of meanings.
minds evolved to discern patterns, sometimes a coincidence is flagged instead.
hence the tendency of the less rigorous reasoning to find meaning everywhere.
while personal meanings may well be found everywhere, they are not shared with other entities.
discrimination is necessary to find meaning that may be shared, so lacking discrimination
is in contrast with healthy human skepticism, for we are social animals, unable to survive alone,
requiring some degree of consensus in our understandings.
however, some measure of belief, a failure of logic, but maybe not reason, is necessary to us all,
especially in the definition of purpose, direction, desire, joy, and fear.
some complex systems seem definitely to reside outside us
sustained by odd reasoning beyond our grasp as individuals
but with meanings and patterns to be derived from complex systems of meaning
painstakingly built by our fore bearers, and continuously added to
things like astrology, numerology, bibliomancy, tarot, runes, religions and other systems of magic.
many have been struck with the similarity much of modern science bears to these previous attempts.
which many also believe have been replaced by the sciences.
quantum dynamics, like astrology, is different than much of the rest, at least for me…
these seem to be confirmed by the passage of my time
to me these things, like other humans, seem more likely to be ‘real’
to be out there, proving themselves at a distance, not affected by how we see, or what we think.
i’m sure that’s how advocates of my most hated of such systems,
that i believe exist only in their own darkly twisted minds, see their explanation systems also.
i believe systems are less dark, and less hate-able,
when the view is flex-able, and amendable by further understandings.
i don’t feel fixed realities are ‘truth’,
they do not reflect the impetus towards evolving that i see in the Allness.
nor it’s need for Love, deep reverance, respect and Grace.
so, i’ve come to believe that truth actually is neither objective nor subjective,
with one soul, conserved by All, truth is found in a consensus reality,
always expandable by new kinds of being and meanings.
i feel this understanding emerges from our experiences,
it is incomplete, and tentative, but, like science, astrology, and divination,
it makes things more easily understood, or at least comprehended, and explained.
the Soul, Allnessing, Beauty, Truth, even earth, gravity, and mind,
each individual part, the whole, and life itself are all emergent properties of being –
things that stem from the fact of existence, whatever it’s ‘real’ form.
all these systems of finding deeper truths seem alien when first encountered,
but when time’s passing seems to confirm them, they seem to become more concrete,
until one can no longer imagine otherwise.
Quantum dynamics’ mathematics are some of the most beautifully twisted pieces of logic
that will ever be.
no less, or more, so than many others that seem to describe the nature of things well,
by allowing us to manipulate her on a deeper, higher, and or bigger, level than before;
to live more well, to evolve, to understand and find meaning.
as were the birthing of spiritual and magical logics before.
the best reasoning we have ever posited all depends on
“because it looks that way to us” which seems more powerful than “it looks that way to me”
but each system is composed of many small changes, each originally only state-able by one
the wisest wise men know, not only that they do not know it all,
but what it is we can never know, and what we may someday understand.
as we enter a century where the most important frontier will be understanding complexity,
especially how the mind emerges from the brain’s interaction with life,
we will find out more about what can and cannot be known, what meaning can and cannot be,
by learning more about what knowing is, and how we derive meaning.
presumably, the more we learn about learning, the better we will get at it.
but the big question (why?) will never change.
only the how will evolve, but now how is poised to at least show us why we ask why, and how we find answers and meanings.
Lao tzu
the wise Tao doesn’t know
meets
god grant me what i may change, forbearance of what i can’t, and wisdom to know the difference
meets
science, life, art, and massless media
emerging
into a better, expanding, more evolved consensus reality, produced by better understanding,
producing better understandings, accelerating earth’s evolving.
even the disintegration of professional capital ownership,
and other exploitation by misappropriation of our common inheritance,
under the crush of it’s own effects, can only free our minds to see
(unless we allow humanity to disintegrate with it), that everything has plenty reason to be.
all paths lead to the emergence of Allness
pleasure in growing is what gives life meaning
humans are the last ones who should ask what is the meaning of life,
for us it is too find meaning in life, asking why is questioning the meaning of meaning.
meaning emerges from existence, like existence, it is.
one may question the nature of existence, but not it’s existence
existence is, is-ing is what it does! i.e. is is! beings are, being is.
It sounds like nonsense, because it is the answer to a nonsense question, sense is sensible; it just is.
likewise, one may question one’s understanding of meaning
but whether life has meaning? meaning is defined by living!
emergence, evolution, mind, and meaning, are,
like existence, simply, miraculously, being!
each, like us each, an integral, inseparable part of the whole
the Allness knows the meaning, the purpose, the principles,
of each individual, as a part of giving meaning to the whole
it is the meaning, and it’s knowledge will hold all.
Allness knows all, but it really knows naught, it does all, it is all, it is more fundamental than knowledge.
we cannot be all the Allness, so we need neither understand, or be, more than we can.
nor may we,
but we can know that to question, to answer, to give ourselves the illusion of understanding meaning
is an important part of what is our reason to be.
Love, Grace, Truth, these are simply things that make life be, and for which it is worth being a life.
meaning derives from the universal quest, the evolution of meanings
existence exists to be, it’s not so complicated. life lives to live, evolution emerges to evolve.
in my lifetime, the precarity, or desperateness, of people
has grown, enormously, continuously, and alarmingly!
while the educated, information society, is ever more rewarded,
efficient, and luxurious, the vast majority are left out.
as of the late 1980′s, more than half of all people ever alive are living now.
that the vast majority of us are living on the edge of desperation,
or in deep desperation, as of mid first decade of the third millennium,
means we are faced with a world, where advancing technology has enabled anyone to live like royalty,
while enforcing a society where the majority, of all humans ever having lived,
are currently either starving to death, in grave danger of doing so, or worse.
yet this technologia could engender an economy that could support most of us
in a style, that, still, very few have ever experienced.
we collectively have graver and graver impacts on our environments’
capacity to sustain us.
as a result of our individual desperate behaviors, we endanger all,
especially those who are not economically, and/or informationally, well endowed.
we must endeavor to reduce the general level of desperation among the masses,
else, even the rich will not be sustained.
the economic and information resources must not only no longer be
used against the interests of individuals, be put at the uses of the masses.
all individuals must learn to act less desperate,
to spare what
they can spare, like info, pleasant labor, and love, without suffering for loss.
and none not well enough off to spare these things, for indeed,
not sharing these things is itself loss, one we all share
all should be given their share of what our forbearers have handed down to us all.
the artistry, and knowledge of our predecessors should be available to all to mix,
and remix, and re-envision.
this is the only way back to an expanding economy,
over the hump of earths population limits combined with increasing disparity.
the corporations are just the most powerful of such individual actors, not the best organized;
governments and other organizations are routinely,
like corporations, programmed to act desperately,
and to produce more desperation amongst others in so doing.
Wither goes our party on this path? How desperate are we?
better, more human, communication, information, education,
and knowledge management,
allow us to fully share the most powerful resources
we have ever had, information, and the knowledge to use it with wisdom.
humanity, and many other species, are badly losing the class war,
to the point of threatened, virtual, or real, extinction!
to our cultural toolage?
our technology has been used to create an Earth,
where most humans, who ever lived,
can only wish they had the luxuries of the tribal hunter gatherer life.
from most, the land, resources on and in it, tribal political power,
and even the control, use, and benefit, of their own labor and information,
have all essentially been removed.
for most, a hunter/gatherer life seems palatial for it is,
compared to squatting in a land”fill”;
more control, sustainability, nutrition, resource redundancy, other securities,
more luxuries, time, and space.
the limitations of neigboring tribes seem like a small cost, the dangers, even of
tribal war is a small price when compared
to working in a sweat shop to poison yourself and your land,
to work yourself to the bone to create a useless luxury product,
for wages that could never cover the cost of the useful thing,
the luxury good is a bad imitation of.
to poison the air? or to be?
a more desperate choice,even, than kill or be killed,
more stressful, less rewarding if successful, more lethal if not.
makes tribal warfare look like fun!
tell someone feeling that desperate to preserve our environment,
there is only one answer, it is simple a question.
how do I survive?
a question more of us should be ready for a good answer to.
even among those who fare better, many are so stressed out,
they spend many resources and much time, trying to get hurt with panache,
in desperate sporting extremes.
the threat of our own extinction becomes the most likely prospect
of our superior ability to adapt to, and master, threats?
i don’t think so…
what kind of human nature, or rationale, is that?
none at all!
once the people seize the festival/party leadership,
first the lobbyists, then the politicians,
then the lawyers, cops, and soldiers,
may all be replaced,
then we will automate management and ownership out of their jobs
(they’ll beat us to it, you know they will; then it’s just a change of ownership).
at which point it will be time to sit the engineers down,
retrain them to engineer for user usability and desires.
then sit the users down, retrain them for co-design of their own lives,
and resource management, the fun, easy,
mySpace way
the dTao be much more earnestly sought,
and the way to being fully human well shown,
in a world of animal, eventually vegetale, peoples.
Gia’s new brain will wake up,
within years heaven on earth, lamb lies down with lion.
the new religion, respect your place, and all others, in the Allness.
the new technolgies will enable same.
to get there, we will automate management,
ownership, even visionaries, out of work.
no longer a job, the shared joy of striving to better our collective individual lives.
to preserve and embody the Earth’s behavioral and genetic information,
creating the beauty of her lifeways, expanding and diversifying them, protecting life,
the duty and pleasure of all.
but more than before, faster, more beautifully, more safely.
not ever less so.
every life will be secure, soon after, eternal.
the record will preserve you,
you will be completely, the record will record it completely,
the record will be you, you will be the record,
the record will be backed up, copied, distributed.
immortal
virtual immortality for some
will transform into real immortality for all Her creatures.
we all know the technical side of immortality is almost worked out.
even now, we have much farther than that to go to build a less vicious,
paranoid, precarious, and desperate world.
a world that can learn to share,
as our technology now demands,
of us all.
you cannot stop it, you may only assist,
something we can all agree on:
automate management and ownership out of a job!
just so’s y’all can lump me in whatever box of ideas you need me to fit in:
besides being a dedicated and active Green Party activist,
though far to lazy and forgetful for my ‘leadership’ positions;
i also think the following are quite likely:
war always sucks,
but virtual war is rocking good fun,
when you get to take a break and live now and then
high levels of US ‘defense’ and ‘administration’ were involved,
at the very least, in not preventing 911,
certain individuals more so than bureacraticity can explain
we have passed peak oil, deal with it
“burning petroleum for fuel is like burning money for heat” ?Mendeleev
Hugo Chavez is the best single being to happen to the Americas since Simon Bolivar
in this stead he, like Bolivar, is more than a man, he embodies
the progressive compromise with capital, and military hierarchy, but just barely, movement
Anarkik being is all about organization, consensus, and democracy
mob rule is man with big stick rule, chaos does not organize
anarks rule selves collective, organize is only way to do so leaderless
if you are not an anark,
consider it the next time your movement is beheaded
by assasination, or co-opted by excess capital accumulation
it happens every time it matters
the reductionist, determinist, absolutest, inhuman assumptions of the culture of ownership,
esp. as it pertains to communal industrial capital
and it’s control by very few for very selfish prosaic and combative reasons,
has no real human rationale, nor has it ever fit the needs or realities of the majority of humans,
much less other fellow inhabitants of earth
way too much collateral damage occurs every day in Iraq,
our school budgets, our hearts, our minds, our liberties, and our relations,
colatteral human damage from the war is just about everywhere touched by the dollar or english speakers
the most important capital can not be owned,
human imagination is a wage,
it must be earned hourly, and must be fed daily
whatch this space, this is a short list now,
but i have a long list of additions already in mind
i’ve spent enough time immersed in the tailend of the wave of culture
last felt to be self indulgently wasting thier youth
many of us are in here
still down with the youth, when it really matters
as the expansion of the envelope with chemical and social help
was the same old better solution to the old hermit in a cave,
as television had given us the twisted belief in over-’consensus’
and we founded counter culture
today it matters a little less who you are or where you are
this medium is not only more liberating, it is more egalitarian
while i’m keeping in mind that 2200$ was just established as the
income below which 85% of humans survive
we must, and will, soon include them,
and the instrument of doing so will transform all our lives
for the better,
as long as we retain control of our use of content, and connections.
the collective self reflection found upon blogs, emails, IMs, and spaces
is a neccesary prelude to effective collective action
whereas the dark solitude of the cave and hermit, and the pshycodelia,
connect us to the allness and our world,
they may alienate us more from each other, than not.
this reflection finds my minds reflections in the eyes of others
whilst this may not well bespeak of one’s social graces, in the ‘real’ world,
it does help excersize the same mental muscles
we need to split up into autonomous little self organized groups
and form our own global organization of human action
from the ground up
conciously, carefully, choosing our own clans
and forming up again, in a human culture, run for humanistic,
humane, human ends,
even long after it is no longer run by humans
i’d been very excited about writting as a youth,
but the motive was to share my thoughts,
once i’d formed them,
i ultimately needed more reason than to practice my words
here on myspace i can read what is written by those who read me, and publish with such facility that i’m quickly unable to do much else
just as it would be if i was always on peyote,
i’m not getting any work done.
now, there are other reasons i’m not working,
but it’s hard to object, for, in here, in very short time
a small somewhat random, un-directed, mosey about,
has given me several new friends that are helping me turn over and redefine many things
it’s not that my closest aren’t not all concerned with these aspects,
just we’ve been over it before,
my positions have solidified around definitions made for each other
over time tumblers move, hinges rust, doors open, doors close
new friends based solely on apparent intellectual depth?
a childhood dream, a leap forward for beingkind in Earth’s vicinity
writing to Piroska, i was discussing the tribal,
and the lost culture of the Ojibwe,
in light from the remaiing Gypsy culture
and i segued into the following:
it’s a more than a damn shame what is lost, but the
old old ways are for a world that no longer exists,
and the new old ways are constantly adapted to the changes around
the important thing is the attitude,
the state of mind and habits of culture
the rythms of life that give connectedness must be given back to all our children
the increasing dehumanization of the dominant culture
has come to the point where we must end that trending upward now
if we do not work today to do this humans will have no tomorrow
the dance of life must be returned to the norm; the beauty, appreciation, and respect
for Allness must be returned to our peoples
organizing on a human scale is core to this
eurocentric culture has a need to just start over in this respect
real political organization has to be broken into groups that can agree on a
consensus
and then, through negotiation, reassembled into an agreement the world can consent to
to build a world the world can consent to every day, forever
this must be done, but it will only need to be done one more time!
for it must be done right this time
having a culture that can evolve,
as opposed to a culture of absolutes is critical
our culture of constantly changing, ever more absolute truths make no sense
but there are confused ones today, who take each new truth as a long standing absolute foundation of right and wrong
change is good, but the foundations are not handed down on high
they are plain for all to see
the current turmoil within, and among religions,
seems based in that fact
any organized hierarchy of humans, in this age of information,
must confine itself to ends it may achieve
increasingly, this only means making money, not sense
only all of us can answer the big questions for all of us
the fragile brittle world of absolutes can’t stand much longer
the scared minds seeking leadership to explain away all the contradictions of thier worlds
will someday soon have to see that world blow away
when you can really see it, it’s amazing how much living in a mind of absolutes,
not only enables, but requires living in a body of hypocrisy
native, aboriginal, boreal, indeed tribal peoples of all nations,
and those without nations, and nations without self determination
all must collect together with the disenfranchised into a majority
this may seem like it will never happen, but it is happened, and it will be continued
to do this we all together must work out what it is we see,
what we want, and what the hell we
are going to do about it.
our entire set of paradigm sets must be recast,
independant of industrial capital’s control
and the only ones who can do it are ourselves
alliances between the disenfranchised, the nationless,
and the stateless nations and tribes
are increasingly strengthened from within
the tribal mind shares, the tribal mind cares, the tribal mind makes alliance
the actions of sustainable future for humanity belong to the tribal.
the comfort of unity with the diverse set of the All, proceeding therein
is in stark contrast, an improvement, on the austere, aloof, useless
monochromality of Judeo-christian-islamisms
the focus on death and what’s after it,
based solely on the fetishization of one heros death,
to procrastinate on joy untill you die
but joy requires a beautiful, healthy, diverse environment,
even inthe abstract or virtual world
so the tribal governments lend more help to the alliance,
and day by day, blog by blog, life by life, clan by clan
a sane world is being built.
the sumpremely human trait, done with love, or with hate,
to know when there is no other alternative
and choose the remaining choice,
and do whatever it takes
regardless of the odds,…
for there is no other choice
so far that is
we have learn about ourselves, that, collectively, we must be very careful who frames the question
in myspace, so far, we choose who frames the question
i do keep noting that there is not only no politics category,
but no green, anarchic, transcendant, spiritual, radical,
useful, meaningfull ones either
well, for now, for me, blogworlds expand mind
ladies, and you poor young men,
i found this blurb that sums up the entire state of mind of men for the first decade or so
please, feel sorry for all the assholes, most of them are just stuck here:
oops…, i’m kinda, oops.. there it goes again! damn, wait, .. love? … no, anger?.. beep? beep; :surprise?!: overload… overdrive,,!,?? oh no! here i post again!
“If I cum now, will it be too soon” ubersite.com/m/17812
or why guys are quiet in bed (482481 hits)
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Submitted by Jon Elkins [Authenticated] (View user info) at 2003-11-04 23:17:40
I was once having a conversation with Jesus and our girlfriends and Razor’s house, and an interesting subject came up. (And yes, I purposely included the name of an uberuser guru in a pale attempt to gain popularity) Anyway, someone asked, “Why are guys so quiet in bed.” And while this is by no means true for all guys, here is my answer.
Guys are quiet in bed because we are too busy thinking. You heard me right. Thinking. Deep thoughts. You see, it seems to generally the guy’s job, (at least in my experience) to make the girl feel as good as possible and have sweet, sweet orgasms. The girl, on the other hand, is generally content to just lay back and see what I’ve got to offer. Again, I can’t speak for anyone else, this is just in my personal experience.
Not only am I thinking during sex, I am multi-tasking. My neuro-net processor of a brain is pounding algorithms as fast as my penis is pounding pussy.
Just what is going through my head during sex? Like the moon, this is a frontier so far journeyed only by man. But here is a small window of what goes on in my head during sex:
“Alright, time for some action”
“I hope I don’t fuck up this time”
“Is that the right hole?”
“Oh wait, there it is”
“All right, lets start out slow”
It isn’t long before my thoughts turn into a quiet panic.
BRAIN: “Damn, she just moved.”
BRAIN: “Did I do something right, or did I hurt her”
BRAIN: “She’s making noises!”
BRAIN: “Pain noises or pleasure noises?”
BRAIN: “Let try stepping up the pace a little”
BRAIN: “More noises, I pretty sure that’s pleasure now”
BRAIN: “Oh yeah, she’s starting to flush, I like that”
BRAIN: “Lets try changing the angle a bit”
………………………..
BRAIN: “Nope, didn’t like that”
BRAIN: “Damn, what was I doing before?”
BRAIN: “Fuck it, lets try a different position”
WOMAN: “OUCH!”
BRAIN: “Yeah….that one was definitely pain>
WOMAN: “What are you doing?”
BRAIN: “Mayday! Mayday!”
BRAIN: “Decrease Velocity!”
BRAIN: “Open flaps”
BRAIN: “Landing gear engaged”
BRAIN: “Disengage primary thrusters”
BRAIN: “Systems check”
ME: “You allright?”
WOMAN: “Uh….Yeah”
BRAIN: “No system damage”
ME: “Allright, lets try this again”
five minutes later….computer pretty much takes over
BRAIN: “Allright, back on track”
BRAIN: “Just a little longer”
COMPUTER: DANGER HULL INTEGRITY
COMPUTER: SYSTEM OVERLOAD COMMENCING
BRAIN: “FUCK! I’m not going to make it”
BRAIN: “Pull out and prepare for manual override”
COMPUTER: SYSTEM OVERLOAD __________
BRAIN: “Pull out, pull out”
COMPUTER: AUTO PILOT ENGAGED
BRAIN: “NO! UNENGAGE! UNENGAGE!”
COMPUTER: TARGET LOCKED….TARGET LOCKED
BRAIN: “If I cum now, will it be too soon?”
BRAIN: “If I cum now, will it be too soon?”
BRAIN: “If I cum now, will it be too soon?”
COMPUTER:
COMPUTER:
BRAIN: “Must….hold….on”
COMPUTER:
BRAIN: “can’t…..hold it”
COMPUTER:
BRAIN: “Its out of my control, its in God’s hands now”
COMPUTER: “PRIMARY VALVE: EJACULATING”
COMPUTER: “AUTOMATIC SYSTEM SHUT DOWN: COMMENCING”
WOMAN: “Honey, are you alright?”
ME: Yeah…..my head hurts….”
WOMAN: “Sorry”
ME: No, the other head”
WOMAN: “What?”
ME: Nothing”
ME: Did you cum”
WOMAN: “What, you didn’t notice”
ME: Actually, I was kinda too busy to notice”
WOMAN: “You’re so weird”
ME: You should try being the pilot next time”
WOMAN: “Get off me, I need to pee”
Do you ever find that pre-orgasm expression on a guys face funny?
Ever wonder what he’s feeling”
Its not pain
Its not pleasure
It is deep, hard, seething thought.”
article in origional context here
so, we see that much of male pattern insanity is simply men driving
it’s not always men driving, but maleness is all about attempting control,
ultimately, this process is mirrored in just about anything a man does
once he has taken an interest
from the first date, to the home, to the fight that could end it,
his eagerness, impatience, agressivness, desire, and control are tested
and the script of this knowledge is hard to shake
if you don’t know it, or try to ignore it,
women will teach you, and you will try to learn
so it is impossible to ignore, without becoming hopeless
wise, lucky, old men, they get it, or else they arrange it so they don’t care,
but it’s simple
we are tested, even guppies want both sides of the coin
every stroke contains the question, can you get carried away?/can you control it?
women don’t want to torture us
but evolution puts them in a place where they must need mutually exclusive traits
primal woman need primal man to lose control
only for her
needs control over overwhelming urge
at her command
and brains, and culture, and war have entrenched these needs
but when it’s just a game, or you feel like you’re winning, or all the needs are met
it is a fun ride,
esp. if you hit the trifecta and get all three, for a long happy life of love together
but don’t expect that any of that should happen to you
if you expect it, you won’t get,
if you don’t hope for it, you won’t get it
if you don’t work for it, you won’t get it
work to hard for it, you won’t get it
men want the same things, in much the same way
but if we can’t find it ourselves, we need to be culled
the male is simply more expendable, always,
that’s what maleness is
this is why straight men mostly secretly wish they were gay
and it is the reason that women feel the same
but it is the engine that has driven the rising complexity,
and powers, of human evolution
to the extreme of evolving the female orgasm
this additional feedback mechanism
creates a whole new level of complexity
along the lines of the same old themes
the question at this point is what do we do with all that
our tech begins to evolve itself
we must wind down the intensity of competition,
else find another venue for it than life
so:
men, swing the pendulum back from external control to internal control,
whichever way you dare to swing the pendulum, don’t swing it too far!
womyn, how about you try driving the beast more often?
whether or not you drive, accept it when you arrive where the driver thought you were going
both sexes must learn to better accept/expect failure more often
much more effective that trying to convince each other of our differing definitions of failure
more fun to share roles, swap sides
makes more whole people
as spontaneous counterpoise to my previous post,
none could do better than one of my closest, Anna:
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Unbroken hearts for unimaginative pussies…
Who do you know whose heart is not broken in some way?
Do you want to know someone with a whole heart?
We are our pain, every one of us.
Our scars and battle wounds are what make us more real…
more recognizable to each other.
When you join two pieces of clay together you have to score each side,
rough it up so that when you press them together they have something to hold onto,
places where they can fold together and can be sealed to make a strong join.
I believe that once broken, there is no going back to a whole heart.
The people and events that cause the breaking never leave us… not really.
I do not think that this is as sad or as melancholy as it may sound.
I prefer the wounded, deep, tried, healed over…
give me substance every time. I despise an unbroken heart.
It implies lack of depth, lack of life.. a grotesque apathy.
I have no end in sight for this monologue,
merely a few (2 or 3 hundred) thoughts on the matter…
It is after all, an unfinished topic with me.
i was already pensive, as my closest had suffered a maajor disaster
SassyPants, my new (MySpace) freind blogged this today,
and it resonated with my day emotionally
“Smothering…
This afternoon a friend of mine told me she wanted to be smoothered. She wasn’t talking about some scary sexual fetish. She wanted to be covered in a love so overwhelming that you can scarcely breathe, nor do you want to. I knew her meaning, having had that very desire myself. To inhale and exhale with another person, feeling them all around you, on all sides and you are blissed out as a result.And then later, another woman told me that she’s being feeling smothered by a friendship she’s been willingly participating in. She has been encouraging the attention and affection of someone who is quite taken with her and has decided it’s too much to take. Smothered. She said the word with fear in her voice. She’s very independent, she told me. She can’t change that about herself, nor does she care to. Her friend’s behavior is alien to her and she can’t even fathom how her own behavior has contributed to her situation.As for me, I long for someone to be sweet to me. I look forward to the time when my voice on the other end of the phone consistently makes another person happy. I’m a do-er, more likely to smother than be smothered. I try to watch myself, but I’m not always successful.
Here’s to each of us looking for what we don’t seem to have. I hope we find it. And soon.
….
my friend who wanted to be smothered was longing for closeness. The woman who was afraid of being smothered feared a closeness that is so very close to my friend’s desire. To be held and cherished, to feel it all around you. Those things make her nervous, where they just make me envious.”
(monte):somethings written by Be had been on my mind and in my heart’s eye,
among them:
“when i fell on my knees
i discovered legs
saw them rising, smoothly curving on their way up, far beyond my sight
never knew legs could fill the sky like that
when my eyes overflowed with tears
i finally knew about thirst
how the water, filling those oceans, slowly poured down my throat
amazing my tounge on its way
when my body fell stiff
i was hoping for you
your arms, strong n steady as im sure they would be, catching me
as i fall
from the sky
to the ocean
hoping
for you”
(monte):
i wish i had the strength to catch the whole world,
i’m still falling down myself
need what you don’t have?
people need each other!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this fit here, from Sassy also, last month:
“Love is…
“Love is…Sometimes I’m in love with the whole world. My heart fills up with love, overflows with it. And I want to rain it down on everyone I see. If we all just gave away the love the world would somehow be even more beautiful than it is. I want to put my arms around my friends and my family and the nice woman who held the door for me and let them feel the living energy moving through me. I want my old pain healed and it seems possible right now, if I can just keep loving this way.”(monte): i feel what they are saying, very much soi want to smother the world with love (deemed GOOD by my nerve systems)
precisely because
the world smothers me with need (deemed OVERLOAD by my systems)
on OVERRIDE (’cause love don’t quit)
still playin on the teeter-totter?
know there is a reason (and that it’s all ok by me)
Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.
i cannot give you your freedom
and i cannot take it away
but i will blog all night
for your right to freely express
there are times when they come in the night,
and they come in the day with unimaginable weaponry
and they massacre, and the unimaginative, and the trusting, and the compassionate
and sometimes just everyone,
are just gone
while we may, let’s make hey!
connectedness, community, and wisdom
are ever more accessible
for the picoradiolinked sensorchip parallel computing networks smart dust (and these links are ancient)
of the very near future will know all and see all
and we had better be ready to share it
so live in the light, live in the open
share a solidarity of community
or be first on the cattle cars when
some botnets evolve sentience
and the one in charge buys all the corps
and fires us all
only love and hope can prevent us from being
supeceded by our own machinations
offering instead, to humanize machination
to embody it in wisdom
to bring it back to the whole technologia
by sharing decisions enough that they are
decided by those who care, and are most affected
the real stakeholders all need a say,
and to decide we all need all the info
either way privacy will die
the built environment will become programable
all our best technologia will be grown
and the bug on the windowsill will have eyes
that see the world from all three angles
narrator, subject, object
someone will soon know the world inside out
i feel strongly that one should be ALLOFUS!
otherwise surely not wise
together we can form Gea a much higher mind
we come together in spaces like this more easily
and with more frequency
while most of the peoples’ content and bandwidth
is filled with the drival of peoples’ lives
that is the goal, the objective is for all to have a soap box
all to have a voice, and all to have a choice
and no little puny subterfuge like Dieboldly voting machines
and a few badley stolen, suposedly public, elections,
will ever really change that
when the people realize the chips are down and it’s time to play our cards
and how rare and beautiful us beingness on Earth is
but mostly people never do anything about a problem
untill they can really see it coming, and where the solution is going
this is why we must more fully share the truths of our consensus reality
i am relatively well versed in the readings of several traditions i have a hard time comparing modern neo-wiccans to other older traditions that have left us a written record
it is very interesting to me that archaeology is finally giving us a picture of celtic culture and druids but wicca as it was practiced is a relatively solitary, very preliterate practice, best found in old midwives tales
so generally, when i speak of wicca, it is something that i consider an abstract unattainable dead thing
but if you want brand new and growing, alive and dynamic, modern neopagans are great, if you hang with the ones’ who you think use some level of reasonable reasoning
but it helps me feel the main things of all traditions that connection that i know is there with my tribal ancestors
and the roots of euro traditions in prehistory
it is all about sensual, beingness, communalness, the allness
modern monotheism denies respectful familiarity with the visceral to it’s own debility and to the debility of our world and every one of us a connectedness to the earth mother, and Allness, implies or enables a more sensuous connectedness with pleasure, and each other.
but the real thing to me, Sufi Mystic, Taoist magician, and Hindu ascetic aside, what really matters to me on the spiritual level of transmissible, recordable, culture, is to be found in all the aboriginals the “native” peoples’ cultures all value consesus, and love, and compassion, and humanity, the visceral, vital, joy of the great implacable Allness
since my practice is here, and my methods, materials, and places, are all native, (at least the plants animals and human here are all natives now, and have been adapted to by the native cultures) more and more often, if you really make me pin it down my religion is American Indian, but that does not exist anglo culture has always tried to conglomerate tribal cultures, first into each other, and then into the anglo culture
but tribal culture evolves at the band level and everyone is a member of at least one clan
connectedness arises again
clans have the rhythm of the year, and the rhythm of one’s life stages, and the rhythm of the moon, and this helps exlplain the rythms of life within, without, and all around you even the speech that connects our minds with each other and concepts that match all around us rhythms
ceremonies that connect you to the changing, and implacably fixed rythms of Allness rythms of your own movements, and actions, and thier relations to the rythms of those around you, and with all of beingness such that one perceives one’s life as dancing not even a dance, a dancing the primitive mind is built differently, better for the future, than the immediate past the dance of beingness is more appropriate to the expanding pie, horizotally structured, consensus, infosphere technologia we must be building
every memory easily retrieved from the place it came from and fitting into all the others in a rational, alive, growing, and evolving whole living in nested sets of individuals’ collectives and thier collected various greater groupings rhythm to the connections between clans, bands, tribes, and nations the marriages of enemies blending thier wills softening hatreds real cultural evolution that really still works so much better than the capitalist industrialist
it’s more fun for us easier on Earth more of godness and goodness to be primal beings
outside smoking, hard to get a shot from this far.
